The truth about forever.

I never realized what it means or feels like to really change. I've always said I need to change. I want to change. I'm going to change. But this week, I changed. I read The Truth About Forever and I felt like I was reading a book about myself. A girl, trying to please everyone, afraid of taking chances, afraid of failing. Shy, emotions kept inside, afraid of losing something or someone, afraid of life, the future. Reading about this girl's discoveries about herself and about life led me to my own discoveries. It made me think about how I need to take risks, no matter the outcome. If I feel it, I need to do it. If I think it, I need to say it. I need to stop living my life in a little box where I think I'm going to be safe. It's time to take chances and step outside myself and what I'd normally do. Then I won't look back and say I wish I had done or said something because in life, you shouldn't have regrets. I can't be afraid of life anymore. It's ok to have doubts and to feel fear but I have to face it. That's what life is. Who cares if your heart gets broken, if you get embarrassed, or if you fail at something. That's life; it's how we learn. It's how we find love. It's how we laugh. It's how we succeed. It's how we grow. I'm not changing who I am, I'm just becoming the person I have always been so afraid to be. So this summer is about me taking chances, taking risks, and being my true self. This summer is about living. Maybe this will be the summer everything changes.