I hate how hard it is for me to let myself think I'm beautiful. I want to believe that I'm beautiful, that I'm worth it, that someone is going to want me, but I don't. And I hate that, I hate that about myself. I don't have the strength to believe it. People tell me all these things and I hear them and I'm flattered by it all but I have never believed any of it. I so badly want to but I can't. And I don't know why. It kills me inside. It rips me apart. It's why I cry myself to sleep. It's why I'm sad. I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I'm done hurting. I need it to stop. I need someone to show me how to believe. To show me that I'm beautiful, to make me feel worth it. I just need somebody to love me.
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