Maybe this time.

I have never felt this way in my entire life. I have never been able to be this comfortable around a guy. I want to tell you everything I feel and I do, without thinking twice or being afraid of what you might think. I love how I have become the person I've been fighting to be for so long. I never could figure out how to break down my walls, and just be myself. You've helped me become this person and if I had never of met you, I wouldn't have changed in such a positive way. I want you more than anything right now, but it's such a healthy want. For the first time in my life, I'm not obsessed, I don't wait by my phone just to see if your name will pop up on the screen, I don't cry at night because I'm worried you don't like me, I don't over think and analyze everything you say or anything that happens between us. Everything is different with you. I'm fearless. I love who I am with you in my life. I love the way you make me feel. I love how you make me happy. I love every single thing about you and me. I know that nothing may ever happen between us and if something does, it won't last, but I'm happy just to have you in my life. You've done more for me than you will ever know. I will always remember you as the person who changed me.

Life isn't a question, it's an answer.

Isn't it funny how life works? How if you weren't in a certain place at a certain time, your life could've turned out so differently. What if we didn't go eat dinner when we did? What if we didn't take that long to decide what to eat? What if we had found a table somewhere else? What if you weren't the one sitting beside me? What if my phone wasn't sitting on the table? What if I had said no? What if hadn't have taken a risk and texted you? I would've never met you. What if I didn't text you the next day? What if I didn't flirt with you? What if I didn't let myself open up? What if I didn't tell you everything I did? What if I hadn't have let myself be fearless? What if I never took all those chances on you? I would've never felt like this. I would've never changed into the person I waited so long to be. What if I hadn't have stopped texting you? You wouldn't have chased me. This is why I think everything happens for a reason; that you were meant to be in a certain place at a certain time. I thank God for everything that happened that day that led me to you. If I hadn't have met you, I wouldn't be who I am now. Being in that certain place at that certain time and what happened in that single moment has changed the rest of my life. Thank you.