Monday, March 29, 2010

My Escape, My Existence


...and as you leave I can't believe it's me I see in you, and I won't let you forget how far we've gone.

...I hate the way you look at me, as if I was broken. & the perfection of frailty has been questioned and broken. & I'm gunnin' for you, I'm gunnin' for you.

...so if you're feeling all alone, remember good times or remember home. & if you question all that you see, remember that you've always got a friend in me because I know we've all got to grow.

...I ran into your garden, but I tripped out the gate. What are you doing to me? I'm so into you. & the hardest part is knowing that you'll never follow through. You're slowly killing me and I wish it wasn't true because I'm so into you.

...so why don't you meet me down behind the old school? We'll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity, the apathy surrounding me. Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away.

...you're amazing, you're amazing & it's true. No one can save me, no one can save me like you do. This is crazy, yeah it's crazy but it's true. Baby save me, baby save me like you do. Stay away, stay close enough to care. I love that name, yeah I see it everywhere.

...I won't let you in, let you see me cry. I can't give you that satisfaction this time. Do you really get what you need beating the hell out of me? I'm so tired of getting up off the floor. I won't take this anymore.

...& did you really look my way? Because no one could've seen this coming.

...I'll give you shelter out of the rain, I'll make a good day out of the pain. & if you've got a long way down, I'll feel the same. I'll give you shelter out of the rain.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

So Late.


I feel like I'm missing out. Why haven't experienced what everyone else has? I've never truly felt loved by a guy. I've never had that first kiss. I'm 18, and I can't help but wonder if there is something wrong with me. Everyone tells me how pretty I am, but are they just giving me sympathy? If I'm so pretty and nice then why have I never had a boyfriend, or my first kiss? Maybe it's not my time... but it's so hard to wait.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Broken Into Pieces.


There goes my heart again, shattered. I hope you realize how much of a dick you are, but I know you don't. You're blinded by the lust you said you didn't want, with me at least. It's not as much what you did, but how you revealed it. I didn't know you could be so hurtful without even knowing it.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Ready When You Are...


I've said all I can say right now. It's time for you to decide whether I'm what you need, or what you don't need. I've been hurt before, and I always hear "There's someone out there for you just waiting to love you completely", but if I get hurt again, I don't know if I can believe that anymore. And I don't know if I'm ready to hear that again.